Day 58 11/20 and I am cranky

Goals

1. closer relationship with God – Today was Galatians 5, Paul continues to tell Christians not to be tempted by works. I know personally this is a hard one. We want to be better and I find my thoughts thinking if only I was better at this or that God would hear me better. When in fact I know that this is not true, I was created, just like you, for the sole purpose of God to love me. Think about that , let it penetrate your heart. God only wants to love us. We do not have to do anything other than accept the sacrifice of his son for us. We can never do anything to earn it, we have to accept that this is freely given to us.
2. Get Fit /Strong- lower body day, abbreviated version as I am again working. Just did the compound moves, squats and deadlift.
3. House organization- did not get to this
4. Writing- did not get to this
5. Camper Reno- did not get to this

On being cranky

I have been working a lot and it has made me cranky . It is not the work so much but the fact I have not been able to work on my goals. This in fact makes me cranky because I am petrified of slipping back to my comfort zone and not working on my goals. I feel a sense of urgency because I feel it is now or never for me. We are so busy at the hospital that everyone is pitching in and working as we are at capacity with no end in sight.

I want to pick back up on the shadow work but have not been able to resume my research on it. But, I would like to talk about taking chances and not making fear based decisions . Really think about how many of our decisions are made because we are afraid something will happen if we do it? If I switch jobs I might not like it. If I start this business I may go broke. I have made many decisions based on doing something that makes me feel secure. The thing is our brain has 1 job really and that is to keep us safe. Our brain likes it when we stay in our comfort zone and will increase our anxiety to try and get us back to the comfort zone. Check out the Mindset Mentor , episode is How to step into your personal power. He talks about fear based decisions. I think this is probably another pattern we allow and do it without thinking. I would love to hear what you think your fear based decisions have been. My revolves around financial security and really, these days, who has this? I learned this year you cannot count on your job no matter how long you have been there.