Day 16 and Focus

Goals

1. Closer relationship with God- Romans 11 , Paul continues to discuss Israel’s rejection of God. He uses this chapter to not try and mix works and Grace for salvation as they are not compatible. This chapter reminds me how blessed we are to have Grace.
2. Get Fit- Upper body today. I am still benching 95 lbs and it is easier but I still struggle on the 6th rep of the sets. I did upright rows , underhand bicep curls, hammers, flys and tricep skull crushers all 3 sets of 8 except benching is 3 sets of 6. I also did cardio, walking with my dogs. This was a little more complicated as my 7 month old newfie pup decided she was swimming in the pond. She took a bit to bathe and comb out.

3. House organization- Today I have a big bag of clothes that I am driving in to town to donate

4. Writing – continued to write in Book. I am going to do more planning for writing this weekend

5. Camper reno- watched another video

Developing Focus

I was listening to the Audible book Be exceptional by Joe Navarro and the subject was observation. More specific situational awareness. I know for me I feel at times I have developed ADD as I would be working on something on the computer and the next thing I knew I was scrolling through FB or checking emails etc. Part of changing your focus is to become more observing. I have become better but not quite there yet.

I am one of those people that have multiple projects going and many not finished. I think focus is all about thinking of what automatic habits you have . Becoming aware of this is the first step to change mindset and create new habits. I am aware it is impossible to be positive 100% of the time. We are all going to have some down periods. I think for me I was always operating from a survival view point. My chaotic childhood shaped my memories and emotions. So I was always operating in the past. I am a catastrophic thinker. When faced with something my mind automatically thinks “what is the worst thing that can happen” and I would prepare for it. I am learning that this causes stress to my brain and body. I thought that I found security doing this, but I was always in a low level stress. It was always causing me to really be operating in the past. So focusing on the more positive and asking myself what I am grateful for has helped over the past few weeks,. Being aware of my self talk , especially first thought in the morning did help me today. This is a habit I want to incorporate into my life.